loving myself is so easy. ♥ Friday, November 26, 2010
Hello readers , i've been so additcted to an old drama currently! Had been watching it day and night. Currently i stop watching season 3 cause it sucks! Story ain't funny anymore cause i hate 3rd person entering their relationship. Honestly i'm watching season 1 & 2 's funny part almost everyday. Had been repeating the same part everyday and i don't find it bored still. Talked to Dk and thx to him for the story line of HAunted Changi a.k.a Old Changi Hospital(OCH) . Making me curious about every part of it but i ain't got guts to watch still. I hate it so much when people change. DK changed so much causing me having mood swings. I rate Dk as a must have in my life , the awesomeness that exist in both of us fit in just nice. There's no one that can ever replace this place he had in my life . Currently he's changing so much , as if he's so far away from me. We've never got into a big arguement until yesterday. I got a real big shock and i can't treat the problems as transparent and nothing had happen between us.
I'm so excited to hit my next destination. Another family outings for days. Something i'm so in need of to quickly get rid of the month. I'm able to let go everything during days , but when it comes to night the scar start tearing off and i'm left broken and unfixed. Every words you've told ever promised me , our song , jokes and wars between us . Everything mean so much to me , i try my very best to hide the scar , hiding it with more and more baby scars. When it comes to night , the main scar just tear off and the pain that i feel are too much until it cover all the pains by baby scar. There's no word for pain like this , it's no longer the pain that i can ditch off when i cry. Everynight , i know the pain is killing me so much , the pain and numb! I'm just lying down quietly , hugging my teddy and pillow tightly , wrapping myself up with the big blanket everynight , and slowly i'll fall asleep.I feel it's great that i've you to accompany to sleep , even just tha pain you've created.
Honestly 12 months past and i've ditch almost all the memories we had off. I don't remember most of it but yes , sugar and the street still live in me , in a very dark corner. To me , you're just part of the myth of my life . A pretty circle that cover up all my pain for few years. Even both of us had move on to continue our own different path , but i'm still looking back at the place we met , holding each other hands and live our life as one.I don't remember what you did but i do know whatever you did created me today. It's no longer the love but you're just part of the myth like i said. Even everything aren't same but i still thank god for showing you to me , if there's no you , there's no XinRuo that everyone know today! I bet i won't have those mature brains at all. Thx for stopping me from doing all the bullshits that'll ruin my life. TeAmo?
Hey people! I've been repeating the same thing everyday , again and again! Since i'm grounded , i stalk my MOM and follow her wherever she goes! Next lame news is my new maid have finally arrive after months. Honestly i'm really sad when i think of my current maid is going back very very soon. We've lots have things to talk , laugh and play but now i'm just all by my own. Recently i don't know what to do since i'm always so bored. I'm not interested to come online cause i'm still alone when i'm online. I don't know who can i talk to or who is the right one for me to talk to. There's no one really understand or had put any concern in me.
I don't know why people don't believe me when i say i'm really SINGLE .Gosh i'm just single and not available maybe? I'm tired of all the bullshits guys created for me. I'm tired of solving all love questions . I've already more than enough questions for me to solve in my studies , so don't create anymore questions that are not relevant to studies cause i really got no time for it. I won't deny it's kinda lonely sometimes but i can listen to songs , watch tv or just SLEEP when i feel so. I love flying all on my own in my sky . I can paint my own rainbows so you don't have to create anymore suprise for me . All i need is a little peace and quiet in my own world! Don't bother to step into my world or let me to be in your world.I don't mind if you treat me as transparents!
I'm better all on my own still.
I prefer to keep my mouth shut and let my iPod speaks all the time!
i believe after hurricane there's always a rainbow , and i can pain my very own RAINBOW!
